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jacknowsbest:

I have made perhaps one of the largest mistakes in relationship history ever so far in my life. 

I spent all my money on myself and other things and now cannot pay for my girlfriend’s birthday, my prom ticket, or any other prom things…which is all happening within the next two weeks. 

I have no idea what to do. I am fucked. Shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. I need my paycheck ASAP which was supposed to be here last FRIDAY. Kill me now before my girlfriend does. 

I have paid little to no attention to mah lady in the past week and a half because I have been so involved in my school-work and I am hosting an exchange student for two weeks. I feel so bad that I haven’t been able to be a good partner to her recently and today we both forgot that we have been together for nine months. 

I am weak right now, I have been bitten with the venomous bite of life and it is blinding me to the point where I am beginning to lose control. Luckily, since my girlfriend is the best girl ever, she does not even bother to notice these things; but I feel she knows that they are happening. I just do not want it to boil down to something very bad. I can only hope my surprise for her this weekend will make her happy. That’s all I want for her right now. She deserves it.  

jacknowsbest:

College is a whole new experience for my fellow classmates and I. It’s a time to take the risks in life that you’ve never had control over before. It’s a time where you are able to choose what you want, where you want it and how you want it in so many ways. The seniors who let their parents do that for them are weak in my opinion. To live such a sheltered life makes you miss out on some of the smallest things that make college, college and not high school. 

Sure, most new college students are going on their parents bill and therefore their parents get the final say. I am no different, however, my parents are leaving it up to me to decide where I go, who I go with, who I live with, what I pursue, how much food I need, and all the other bells and whistles that come along with college. I don’t understand how parents of other children like myself can think that by making decisions like these for them is helping them. Because when these kids graduate and are forced to make these same decisions again, they are going to have no idea what to do. 

Even smart, driven, and talented children are just letting this go by as another thing that they don’t have to do. Eventually they will and it’s difficult to tell them, “I told you so.” with their parents plugging their ears. 

jacknowsbest:

Sometimes, I don’t know how she cannot understand what I am saying to her. I already know if I talk to her like I normally do that she won’t understand a single word I say. So when I arrive to her with the simplest terms I can possibly explain something and she still doesn’t understand I am at a loss. I never know how to break it down any simpler than I already am. What is going on in her mind? I just want to know. 

The only way I know for real to make sure she listens and understands me is if I make her feel real emotions. Usually it consists of scaring her so she’ll listen to me to get her un-scared, or making her angry to the point where she realizes that she has to agree with me on what we’re talking about and it never ever ends well. Sometimes I just wish it was easy to understand one another without having to go through so many hoops and ladders, but I guess that’s life. 

jacknowsbest:

Today, I visited VCU again just for the hell of it with my girlfriend. We had a grand old time as always and had lunch…it made me realize I need to start paying for thing again. Oh well. 

After our trip to Richmond we retreated to her house to have dinner with her family. We started having this discussion about what is one thing we would take into an empty room if we were trapped there for 24 hours. Here’s the scenario:

The room is four white walls made of drywall and wood, with poured concrete floor, no doors, no windows, and fluorescent lighting. 

Rules are as follows: you can bring one item and one item only, people are included as well as other living things, but that would be one. Ex: you want a notepad? you got it! but you have no pen. Go.

Given time to think on what the best object to bring into this room with me I decided on one thing. A block of foam. 

My girlfriend chose an iPad…

I thought I was materialistic all this time throughout my life, and I still think that. However, I never realized how well I could live without it. The reason I would want a block of foam is for comfort. But why comfort? Don’t I want to be entertained? Don’t I need something to devote my attention to make time go by faster? Well, I hate to break it to the world, but time moves just as fast as it always has, and always will. And by a block of foam I mean one large enough for me to lay or sit on. For comfort, I can entertain myself within my own mind! I delve as deep as I want to about anything…with an iPad…you cannot. 

An brand new iPad would last you probably a maximum of 7 hours. Also, there is no wifi connectivity. Plus, if you’re uncomfy that’s all you can think about. It clouds your mind like an infection. But if comfortable, the mind becomes endless. 

jacknowsbest:

…if you catch my drift. 

More and more people are re-creating, re-accrediting, and re-hashing the past in art, politics, and everything in between. 

It’s a shame because artists of the past were all discovering new ways to create new art. Art was a driving force behind education and religion of the renaissance and the scientific age believe it or not. It changed society. Today however, the youth culture now dwells on past ideas and philosophies to create art. Largely in thanks to the Internet. The world wide web has allowed folks to relive the past on a screen and for re-creating things that have been done before easier than ever.

404 Error <idea not found or train of thought derailed> 

I believe that history should not repeat itself, that makes for a boring story later on. 

jacknowsbest:

I want to write about something in my life. Although I am not sure what aspect I want to focus on or evaluate or what have you. I think a partial reason for that is because I just came home from a concert band assessment, in which I was evaluated already so I guess I fulfilled that need. However, I figured it’s still healthy for me to write. 

I am glad I am pretty much ahead of the curve on everything college-wise. I just need VCU to open their housing and orientation sign-ups so I can get that ball rolling. Although, now that I think about it…I need to go to the doctors in order to get my immunization forms done. 

This punctuality has let me kind of focus on my school-work which is chipper as ever. On paper, Senior year is pretty awesome. However, I am not satisfied with the quality of work I am holding myself to. So, I need to step that up…imagine my grades then! 

My social life is how it always is…normal. I have lovers, and I have haters. That’ll always be. 

I am proud of myself that declutter week has not only extended into my entire life philosophy but has improved my quality of life by about on thousand percent. I rounded up. I just have to keep this up for the rest of my life…I thank Steve Jobs for this. I change de-clutter week and re-declare de-clutter LIFE! I can’t wait. 

Also, my girlfriend and I are happy as ever. My main focus for her right now is her birthday and Prom. This is my biggest problem right now. Because I have to pay for all of it and I have no idea how I am gonna do that. On the bright side we are both busy enough that our minds aren’t stuck on it and luckily she doesn’t breathe down my neck. She’s wonderful. On the downside of that, us being so busy kind of allows us to forget about it which could be bad as well. Gotta keep myself posted. Like I said, she is a wonderful gal. 

I started this post kind of unhappy with where I was…but I think I am pretty happy now that I have stepped back and observed my life. With the exceptions of a few tasks; but I’ll get those in order. 

Life is good.

dbreunig:

• Water, 1400
• Land, 1840
• Gold, 1850
• Wire, 1880
• Air, 1900
• Celluloid, 1920
• Plastic, 1950
• Space, 1960
• Silicon, 1980
• Networks, 1990
• Data, 2000

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